38/120

38/120 sounds like a very bad blood pressure reading. Well that is not what it is. It is the easiest way I could balance my life. According to Hindu Astrology, the horroscope is prepared for 120 years. That was possibly the maximum life expectancy at the ancient times. Therefore the 60 and 80 birthday celebrations, Shasthiabtha poorthi etc. symbolifying comletion of the half way mark and the 2/3rd mark. By that record with my insignificant knowledge of Hinduism or Astrology, I accepted the base of 120. I then set out to find out what I have achieved. In many of my achievements there were scars of failures. In some failures, there seemed to be sucessess. Then arose the concept of private and public failure and achievements. Monetary and spiritual. It was so easy to convery every failure into a sucess and a sucess into a failure. The failure in marriage was a success in the two children. The success in career was a failure in monetary terms. The educational qualifications lacked public achievements. Reading of books a great private achievement, but compared to what many are reading the list seems old and insignificant. I too read the Alchemist, but not the White Tiger. Oh I have many hobbies and interets. Well what do I know about them, how deep and how wide?
Well mid life or otherwise, the balancing was getting to be very difficult. I could not scope myself. The best seemed to be something that is a fact and cannot be disputed. Ah ha, like 120 the years that I have lived on earth in this life with this mortal body. 38 it shall be. My achievements and my pursuits. My toil, sweat and blood, my agony and ecstasy, my epitome of achievement, my undisputed Oscar.
I managed to put a score card. 38/120.
I still need to know what I need to do in the balance 82 years to become 1.
How do I prepare my scorecard for the future. What is it that I need to do, what should I improve, what should I add and delete?
Please help